Lost:
consciousness
the will to live
in translation
in space
a loved one
in France
in the wilderness
my place
my identity
my way
my nerve
at sea
in action
property
dog
my job
my grip on reality
my marbles
I was in bed with the flu around the time of the Oscars and
heard a radio 4 programme (between being lost
in bouts of fever fog) celebrating previous winners
They were talking about American Beauty (1999), one of my
favourite films, and played an extract of the opening speech by the character Lester
Burnham (played by Kevin Spacey):
‘Both
my wife and daughter think I'm this gigantic loser. And they're right. I have lost something. I'm not exactly sure
what it is, but I know I didn't always feel this -- sedated.’
I have access to a beautiful set of old medical equipment,
the instruments and medicines are packed away in neat, splendidly designed and
crafted little metal boxes. I am particularly fascinated by the morphine administration
kit, there’s something slightly sinister about it but comforting at the same
time; a shift in dose and circumstance could make the difference between relief
from a desperately painful experience, a smooth exit from a terminal condition,
an untimely end at the hands of an unscrupulous practitioner or a descent into
addiction. ‘Lost’; either permanently or temporarily.
I did another internet search, and thinking of Lester
Burnham asked ‘is morphine a sedative?’
‘No,
morphine is an opioid analgesic. It is a narcotic used for pain control.
Sedation is one of the expected side effects of this medication.’
On
this same page people had also asked ‘how do you smoke morphine in pill form?’
and ‘what’s the street value for morphine?’ Again I had a little shiver of
fascination at the potentially disastrous outcomes of their desire to get lost for a while.
Morphine is named after Morpheus, the god of dreams (dreaming,
of course, relies on temporarily lost consciousness)
Inspiration / ideas
The diagrams we had to draw of equipment
set ups in chemistry classes at school, very flat, 2D on squared paper as a guide: ‘lost the third dimension’ ‘lost depth’ ‘lost form’
The white line drawings projected onto the
‘industrial’ (rough brick and concrete) backdrops in the BBC2 series ‘Science
Club’ similar to those depicted in this cartoon
I also like this image of a Thorens
turntable from an old instruction manual which is very 2D, the block of colour
over it exaggerates this loss of depth
Objective 2D drawing on squared paper
Thumbnails of alternative views and another objective drawing
Tonal version
I cut out the white line-work from this tonal version and
experimented layering it with different backgrounds:
A photo of poppies in a field, poppies being the source of
opium from which morphine is derived
Red and green papers from my collection, these don’t really
contribute to the ‘lost’ theme
Nevertheless, I printed the green one and applied a crackle
glaze and stain to age it
An image from a magazine with the ‘industrial’ background
texture I was after, which I manipulated in photoshop to make it unrecognisable
and to give the idea of space, as in ‘lost in space’.
I took the ‘lost in space’ image, duplicated it in layers
and experimented with distorting the upper layer using the free transform
application, leading to a partial loss of the original form but re-introducing
an element of the three dimensionality which is exaggerated by the distortion
of the small squares.
I like these, especially the ‘spherical’ distortion which
echoes the shape of the globe on which the box appears to balance. Do they add
anything to the lost theme? Not sure.
Next I tried combining the tonal version with a map of
Everest (a tool used to avoid getting lost) in photoshop layers, applying a
gaussian blur to the map (lost focus) and reducing the opacity of the map layer
(lost intensity)
I then adjusted the brightness, contrast, saturation and levels to
produce a background that looked similar to the human vascular system, a
reference to the administration route of morphine.
Then I rotated the top layer to add more tension in relation
to the frame and introduced a question mark motif which I then multiplied and
set in a circle representing a compass (lost direction)
I’m not sure these work, I would need to rough up the text
somehow so that it sat better with the
background. Also the shape of the original drawing is lost due to the lack of
contrast.
I finally chose this image because I like the ethereal feel of the
background- the way the world is only semi-recognisable, and I like the way the
distortion of the top layer reflects the shape of the globe and that the tin
could be seen as a vehicle with the catch pointing in the direction of travel,
without knowing where that is.
I decided to ‘fog’ the edges to add to the lost theme
On reflection:
- I like this image very much although I did lose
confidence in at as an illustration for ‘lost’ towards the end, thinking that
maybe my interpretation was a bit abstract and my reasoning tenuous
- By that point I was so far along with it that I couldn't face starting again, maybe I was just having one of my cyclical lapses
in confidence
- I’m not entirely happy with the text, even on
squared paper I didn't manage to draw the letters well and evenly spaced,
although with the distortion it’s less noticeable
- I’m still not sure what my style is or even if I
want to aim to have just one...could that be a problem if I’m pitching for work?
Overall, I've enjoyed part 4 although it's taken me ages to complete. Some exercises were more of a struggle than others, which I think shows in the quality of the work. I find designing for a child audience the most difficult of all, I don't have much affinity for them but I would like to be able to capture the humour, looseness and sweetness that I admire in the work of children's illustrators...maybe it's just not my thing, anyway I'm not looking forward to the child related exercises in part 5 at all.
This sums up how lost I felt the other day
better now though.
2 days later
I've just had another go at the children's book cover exercise, following through on my urge to draw a different image in different materials after being inspired by telly credits has made me feel much more optimistic about tackling part 5.